see the year over! As I sat there though, knowing I'd turned my corner, drawn my line in the sand, and was completely ready to embrace the wonder and magic of a new year, even I was kind of amazed that I got through that last one without pills, Prozac or piling on the pounds.
There were days I went to bed balling my eyes out and woke up the next morning still crying. Days I didn't think it was possible to get out of bed, let alone function and be the mommy I needed to be to my two sweetheart children. Fleeting moments I wished big black holes existed and months that blurred into oblivion on no more than 4-5hrs of sleep per night. I even had my own "Eat, Pray, Love" moment of sliding down a mouldy shower recess, wailing and begging Spirit to show me how to do this, because I didn't know anymore... more than once.
Being part of a relationship that sucks can do that to you - and by that I mean any relationship. The one we have with a partner, parent, child, colleague, friend, money... and the one we have with self.
Two things got me through that year 1) a commitment to feeding my body what I'd already (thankfully) worked out she does best with... and 2) realising the thoughts I fed myself each day were just as important. For me the second was definitely the trickier of the two and actually became part of the biggest lesson I learned last year - that self-acceptance is a process, not an event, and by creating a different script of how I spoke to myself, life could become full of so much more joy, grace and ease!
There were days I went to bed balling my eyes out and woke up the next morning still crying. Days I didn't think it was possible to get out of bed, let alone function and be the mommy I needed to be to my two sweetheart children. Fleeting moments I wished big black holes existed and months that blurred into oblivion on no more than 4-5hrs of sleep per night. I even had my own "Eat, Pray, Love" moment of sliding down a mouldy shower recess, wailing and begging Spirit to show me how to do this, because I didn't know anymore... more than once.
Being part of a relationship that sucks can do that to you - and by that I mean any relationship. The one we have with a partner, parent, child, colleague, friend, money... and the one we have with self.
Two things got me through that year 1) a commitment to feeding my body what I'd already (thankfully) worked out she does best with... and 2) realising the thoughts I fed myself each day were just as important. For me the second was definitely the trickier of the two and actually became part of the biggest lesson I learned last year - that self-acceptance is a process, not an event, and by creating a different script of how I spoke to myself, life could become full of so much more joy, grace and ease!
